to live a better live and prepare myself for William's arrival, regardless of when that will be. I'm severely out of shape, no doubt about it. Between the PCOS and not having time to focus on being and staying healthy, I'm not proud of who I am right now. I feel like I gain weight uncontrollably and I have no idea how to stop it. So I'm on a mission. One of my colleagues at work has been doing a great job running and she has the results to show for it. Unfortunately I've probably got a good 80 pounds or more up on her, but I find it an inspiration nonetheless.
So what did I do tonight? After work, I drove myself down to the Metroparks and made a noble attempt at it. I went a total of 2 miles, jogging in short spurts when I could, rapidly walking the rest of it. It hurt like the dickens, but it also felt good. And I guarantee you that it wasn't a pretty sight, so I kept the jogging to areas where there was no one within view :-). With the weather starting to cool off, I'm hoping that I can make it a regular routine on nights that I am not working. So far this week is off to a good start - I work tomorrow night so we'll have to see if I can stay motivated again on Wednesday. It's also a great stress-relieving break from the chaos that work has been lately. And I keep picturing the wedding dress hanging at my mom's house that I am hopeful to be wearing sometime next year. And the thought that newly-weds gain weight after they get married, which I certainly DON'T need to do. So I'm trying to fend off the inevitable or make the inevitable more difficult.
All I know is that I am not happy with myself right now - I'm overweight and my face is breaking out like nobody's business now that I'm PCOS medication-free for the timebeing. HATE IT! So I need to try to focus on what I can do to try to feel better about myself and make me better because I have lots of things to look forward to.
